I love surprises! except when its a surprise allergy :)
Today I was all ready for church, looking cute in my new boots, so I decided to sit down and do a little crochet practice. My grandma B got me all excited again about this new hobby. I am a person who has lots of down time due to my health and a down time hobby just fits in my life right now. After a few minutes I started to get shooting nerve pains, usually my first sign of an allergic reaction or chemical overdose.
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
the things I learn..........
It has been such a long time since I've been on here. I've been going to Dr Hammon for 10 months very consistently now. To take the time to explain the things I've learned and the progress I've made would be FOREVER. I can't believe how blessed I have been! I am definitely still on my journey towards health but the place I am on that path is so far past where I ever dreamed I could be after what I've gone through with this human body of mine.
Today I learned 2 really big lessons and made a couple breakthroughs in my own emotional health.
1. not to jump to conclusions. I jumped to a big one today and had to humble myself after realizing I was completely wrong. I had to step back and assess why I have this bad habit of assuming bad things about myself and that others would assume bad about me too. I'm grateful for this experience and the deep emotions it has brought out in me. I truly believe a big part of healing is getting past these big emotions! and........
2. People only talk about me and my problems because they care. I realized I do the same thing. I care so deeply that I want to help fix everyone and everything. When I realized that in my urge to help I too go to others for advice and reassurance and sometimes about others I do this too. This also came from a deep place and a hard time from my life that I assumed the talk was gossip and mean things when honestly these people were probably just struggling to help me. Healing emotions is hard to go through for me, for everyone really. Feeling something that you obviously buried for a reason is not fun, but getting past them and becoming closer to who you want to be is worth every tear, every bit of pain!! so, after a couple hard lessons today I am feeling blessed!!
Today I learned 2 really big lessons and made a couple breakthroughs in my own emotional health.
1. not to jump to conclusions. I jumped to a big one today and had to humble myself after realizing I was completely wrong. I had to step back and assess why I have this bad habit of assuming bad things about myself and that others would assume bad about me too. I'm grateful for this experience and the deep emotions it has brought out in me. I truly believe a big part of healing is getting past these big emotions! and........
2. People only talk about me and my problems because they care. I realized I do the same thing. I care so deeply that I want to help fix everyone and everything. When I realized that in my urge to help I too go to others for advice and reassurance and sometimes about others I do this too. This also came from a deep place and a hard time from my life that I assumed the talk was gossip and mean things when honestly these people were probably just struggling to help me. Healing emotions is hard to go through for me, for everyone really. Feeling something that you obviously buried for a reason is not fun, but getting past them and becoming closer to who you want to be is worth every tear, every bit of pain!! so, after a couple hard lessons today I am feeling blessed!!
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
what's that in the air?? :)
Today I feel hope. I feel kind of yucky, but hopeful that this will indeed end. I have a new member on "Team Michele's health" and I felt like I was guided to bring him into this club of mine. He is a chiropractor/acupuncturist/physical therapist and I just can't remember the other things he has on the wall. I feel as though he knows the intricate balance that a body needs and has great knowledge of the workings of the human body. Today was actually my 3rd appointment. I have been making great progress but not getting past a certain point in the past. In our talks and plans for treatment I feel like we are going to see the end result I have been praying for. Not without struggle and hard work of course but......I feel it coming!!
The other thing I feel today besides this bright ray of hope for my future is gratitude. I am grateful to be where I am today. Its sometimes a real tough place to be but nevertheless I wouldn't change it. I am a hard to teach person by nature and luckily my loving Father knows that. He knew to learn the things I have and to become who I am becoming I must first go through fire.....and that I have. However, I feel myself coming out as polished. I know I have a long long way to go, but..... I feel blessed.
I also feel today that my need to be TOUGH may just be diminishing. I am tough and I know that, and God knows that, and the people who love me most know that. Even if I show my hard days, and show that sometimes I am weak and need help.....they know who I am and I trust that today! Hopefully this all extends more and more than just today but for today I feel excited!
The other thing I feel today besides this bright ray of hope for my future is gratitude. I am grateful to be where I am today. Its sometimes a real tough place to be but nevertheless I wouldn't change it. I am a hard to teach person by nature and luckily my loving Father knows that. He knew to learn the things I have and to become who I am becoming I must first go through fire.....and that I have. However, I feel myself coming out as polished. I know I have a long long way to go, but..... I feel blessed.
I also feel today that my need to be TOUGH may just be diminishing. I am tough and I know that, and God knows that, and the people who love me most know that. Even if I show my hard days, and show that sometimes I am weak and need help.....they know who I am and I trust that today! Hopefully this all extends more and more than just today but for today I feel excited!
Sunday, August 24, 2014
a bubble girl living in a toxic world
wow! It has been a really long time since I have posted anything on here. It's hard to briefly explain all the reasons why :) I'll get to that later. For today, I'm talking about hairspray people!!
So, I went to church feeling pretty decent today, excited to be there, excited to learn more about the things I believe in and excited to get to know my friends and neighbors. Well..........I made it all of 15 minutes then had to leave and come home. My daughter had to walk me out to the van as I had been exposed to hairspray and was starting an allergic reaction. bad news. so, here I am once again.........alone at home during church.
I have not always loved hairspray. When I was young I remember sometimes getting all fancy for some family event or family pictures and I hated getting my hair sprayed. It was sticky and stinky and always got in my face. Then I got older and fell in LOVE with hairspray! who wouldn't? you can do all kinds of awesome things to your hair, then use this magic spray and WALA it stays that way all day. :)
Until the day I realized this was a MAJOR culprit to my dizzy spells, shakiness, nerve pain, nausea, brain fog, inability to keep my balance and quiet shudders inside my nervous system. HMM. BREAKTHROUGH. Avoiding this one thing can help diminish the number of times I feel this way?!! Not a problem. After lots and lots of muscle testing and trial and error and lots of unnecessary reactions I found a hairspray that I can use and it rocks! (except its dang hard to find and super expensive) However, who wouldn't be willing to make that change to avoid those reactions?
I used to be a junkie so I get why everyone wears it. Unless you are a bubble girl you have no idea what it may or may not be causing in someone else's nervous system! So, I avoid it like the plague. You come over I ask you to not wear it, people stay at our home I ask that you not wear any, OR use mine :) I stay at your house I ask the same thing. I have to avoid indoor spaces in general bc of this sensitivity. School lunchrooms......classrooms......church.........stores.............restaurants..........other peoples houses, vehicles......the list could go on forever. and HONESTLY I can't always avoid these places. I don't blame people for wanting to look and smell nice. I still go to all those places listed above. First I say a little prayer that nobody within smelling range of me has any hairspray or perfume on then I venture into the unknown. Sometimes I do okay and sometimes I don't! It's a fun little guessing game, my life!
It's not only hairspray this problem I face! Laundry soaps, dish soap (Especially DAWN) SO BAD, cleaners, lotions, perfumes, candles (ESP scentsy SO BAD) and so many other random things. Today, I made a connection, probably realized several times before but once again. I have a very weak liver. I have known this for awhile. Livers process toxins and clearly I have no capability of processing these toxins. SO, the answer is SIMPLE...............start my own bubble community. People can come live in my community under strict guidelines of products and foods and fabrics that can be in their lives and homes :) perfect right??
Let me know if you wanna come live by me and be my bubble friend :)
peace out,
Oatmeal girl
So, I went to church feeling pretty decent today, excited to be there, excited to learn more about the things I believe in and excited to get to know my friends and neighbors. Well..........I made it all of 15 minutes then had to leave and come home. My daughter had to walk me out to the van as I had been exposed to hairspray and was starting an allergic reaction. bad news. so, here I am once again.........alone at home during church.
I have not always loved hairspray. When I was young I remember sometimes getting all fancy for some family event or family pictures and I hated getting my hair sprayed. It was sticky and stinky and always got in my face. Then I got older and fell in LOVE with hairspray! who wouldn't? you can do all kinds of awesome things to your hair, then use this magic spray and WALA it stays that way all day. :)
Until the day I realized this was a MAJOR culprit to my dizzy spells, shakiness, nerve pain, nausea, brain fog, inability to keep my balance and quiet shudders inside my nervous system. HMM. BREAKTHROUGH. Avoiding this one thing can help diminish the number of times I feel this way?!! Not a problem. After lots and lots of muscle testing and trial and error and lots of unnecessary reactions I found a hairspray that I can use and it rocks! (except its dang hard to find and super expensive) However, who wouldn't be willing to make that change to avoid those reactions?
I used to be a junkie so I get why everyone wears it. Unless you are a bubble girl you have no idea what it may or may not be causing in someone else's nervous system! So, I avoid it like the plague. You come over I ask you to not wear it, people stay at our home I ask that you not wear any, OR use mine :) I stay at your house I ask the same thing. I have to avoid indoor spaces in general bc of this sensitivity. School lunchrooms......classrooms......church.........stores.............restaurants..........other peoples houses, vehicles......the list could go on forever. and HONESTLY I can't always avoid these places. I don't blame people for wanting to look and smell nice. I still go to all those places listed above. First I say a little prayer that nobody within smelling range of me has any hairspray or perfume on then I venture into the unknown. Sometimes I do okay and sometimes I don't! It's a fun little guessing game, my life!
It's not only hairspray this problem I face! Laundry soaps, dish soap (Especially DAWN) SO BAD, cleaners, lotions, perfumes, candles (ESP scentsy SO BAD) and so many other random things. Today, I made a connection, probably realized several times before but once again. I have a very weak liver. I have known this for awhile. Livers process toxins and clearly I have no capability of processing these toxins. SO, the answer is SIMPLE...............start my own bubble community. People can come live in my community under strict guidelines of products and foods and fabrics that can be in their lives and homes :) perfect right??
Let me know if you wanna come live by me and be my bubble friend :)
peace out,
Oatmeal girl
Sunday, February 16, 2014
I am not a wuss!!
Growing up with a big brother and all boy cousins I had to hold my own as the only girl in the pack. And I did. I loved hanging out with the boys and doing crazy and wild things. I loved the friendships I had with them and the way I fit in although I was a girl. I loved being TOUGH. I was not a wimpy girl who stood on the sidelines. I got in there and got just as messy and brave as they all did. So, engraved in my soul is this tough girl. The one who doesn't give up on anything or anyone, the one who can hold her own against anyone she wants to, the one who is never left behind.
BUT NOW......I am the girl who's body just doesn't agree with her soul. I am the girl who can't keep up with anyone anymore and couldn't hang with the boys if I tried. I'm the girl who has to stop myself from doing anything that could wear me out or bring me down. I'm the girl who has to slow down my natural pace and take it easy ALL THE TIME! I am physically a wuss. But inside........I am still that other girl. I long to find her again. I long for my body to be able to keep up with my soul. I long to not feel like a burden to everyone who has to care for me daily. I long to feel strong and brave and tough like I used to. I strive to do all the things to strengthen my body and I know that with time and faith and lots of work I WILL GET THERE!!
BUT NOW......I am the girl who's body just doesn't agree with her soul. I am the girl who can't keep up with anyone anymore and couldn't hang with the boys if I tried. I'm the girl who has to stop myself from doing anything that could wear me out or bring me down. I'm the girl who has to slow down my natural pace and take it easy ALL THE TIME! I am physically a wuss. But inside........I am still that other girl. I long to find her again. I long for my body to be able to keep up with my soul. I long to not feel like a burden to everyone who has to care for me daily. I long to feel strong and brave and tough like I used to. I strive to do all the things to strengthen my body and I know that with time and faith and lots of work I WILL GET THERE!!
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
B12- MY HERO
Seriously this vitamin has changed my life. Here's an article I read that tells the importance and function of b12.
http://chriskresser.com/b12-deficiency
I thought it was an awesome article and talked about the dangers of b12 deficiency. I think it's sad that of all the blood work I have had done I was low in the "normal" range on this vitamin........when in all actuality I'm sure I've been deficient for some time. I go now and get a shot once a week. These are the difference I've noticed:
-improved mental clarity, less "brain fog"
-no more anxiety, my body REALLY needed this vitamin in this case
-my nervous system has calmed down immensely. Before getting shots I could not THINK about anything stressful, sad, happy, exciting, really any emotion without my fight or flight response flying out of control
-more energy
-less blood sugar crashes
so many more benefits I'm sure I don't even know. Its crazy sad that this one inexpensive vitamin could have helped me LONG ago! now go on and have your levels checked. maybe compare them to the "NORMAL" ranges in a different country, as Chris Kresser's article stated that the normal in this country is actually too low!!
now go get yourself some b12!!
http://chriskresser.com/b12-deficiency
I thought it was an awesome article and talked about the dangers of b12 deficiency. I think it's sad that of all the blood work I have had done I was low in the "normal" range on this vitamin........when in all actuality I'm sure I've been deficient for some time. I go now and get a shot once a week. These are the difference I've noticed:
-improved mental clarity, less "brain fog"
-no more anxiety, my body REALLY needed this vitamin in this case
-my nervous system has calmed down immensely. Before getting shots I could not THINK about anything stressful, sad, happy, exciting, really any emotion without my fight or flight response flying out of control
-more energy
-less blood sugar crashes
so many more benefits I'm sure I don't even know. Its crazy sad that this one inexpensive vitamin could have helped me LONG ago! now go on and have your levels checked. maybe compare them to the "NORMAL" ranges in a different country, as Chris Kresser's article stated that the normal in this country is actually too low!!
now go get yourself some b12!!
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